oh em gee

spotted. one of the best combinations to hit america. and unfortunately not australia.
my heart will go on :P

i'm crying on the inside.

S.O.A.P

S - Scripture
O - Observation
A - Application
P - Prayer

photo: courtesy of Yvan Rodic

can't wait to get started. to refresh myself with God's Word. Man, i've been starving.

specifically designed for the roamers, come home.

i don't know

why have we become so indecisive? 'i don't know'.

we're given options, opportunities, choices, mentors of guidance and wisdom, faith, friends, family. And yet, in most situations we seem to conclude with an 'i don't know'.

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'i don't know'

sometimes we float, drifting in despondence, waiting for the worst to settle or a kick on the butt forcing us to jump to the occasion and chase after things. i believe that most of us don't really know what we're doing, why we're doing it, or who we're doing it for. that we're just relying on our luck to get us by. and if worst comes to worst. you've still got that huge 50" LCD tv in your bedroom with your favourite channel, with your favourite show that let's you know that ross & rachel are going to get back together someday right? 'i don't know'.

we're going to become drifters one day kids. we look at our parents and we say 'no, i'm never going to be like them. so we drift to the opposite side of the pendulum only to realise that we're walking right back in their footsteps and mistakes.

we look at failing relationships and say 'marriage will never be that hard'. but in our own, when we reach a struggle we tend to only want what we want, not our partner. they'd ask 'do you love me?' 'i don't know'. 'do you even know what love is?' 'i don't know'.

we observe our entire school/uni career and wish we did things a bit differently. like submit something in a different way, change subjects/courses before it was too late, or not cut off that friendship that happened to get cut. what are you doing at school? 'i don't know'. i'm sure you have an answer. but is it THE answer?

i'll admit, 'i don't know' where i'm going with this. but it adds to it right?

'i don't know...'

regrets, mistakes, choices and opportunities. they all come and fade. but we learn to appreciate the contributions they've made - whether we're happy or not.

but kids, what are you really living for? who are you really living for? why are you living the way you are living? are you happy with yourself? are you content with it all? it's okay to not have an answer, but let it be a warning sign to a drifting lifestyle. don't drift. change, be a forerunner and run this race with the right causes, for the right people and get the outcome you always wanted: the ability to answer a questions legitimately not with an 'i don't know' you liars :)

Hagrid, Hagrid, Hagrid

Hagrid, Hagrid, Hagrid from Ana Veira on Vimeo.

after a good day of nazirite training and stargazing.

lovelovelove & lust

had a fun day today. nothing better than hanging out with a bunch o’ idiots and doing who really knows what. it’s nice to have days where there isn’t really anything to stop you, nothing to worry you. no unnecessary drama that occurred. i’ve observed, that as you age, there is less of a need of things to do, but there’s good times for good conversation about barking, ice, spit, substance, deen’s insatiable lust for ally, ally’s dog, ally’s mother and of course… wendy.

whootney, i believe i still have your v. i’m going to enjoy that tomorrow.

and to the couple on platform 14. thank you for making everyone’s day with your make-out session that just didn’t end. it really really did not end. nor was it pretty to look at. but for your sake, and for our humour, we hope you were embarrassed by our applauding. ;)

yes, twas a good day. i believe that in the midst of the death that this year will bring us, in regards to school, it’s still going to be amazing.

and to the image above: outside sydney aquariam. it looks so legit it was FREAKY! 

by the by, congratulations to my friend ally malpass who got into fashion international at UTS. a course that needs a 98.9 ATAR. this is inspiring me to work hard this year.

new layout

so, what do you think?
i'm buggered that the image and the background, even though containing the same colour code, are different. and due to my faint OCD it's going to disturb me and then motivate me to revert to my original form.

a new colour. a natural colour. interesting isn't it? i felt as though the grey invited in a feeling of self-doubt and poor reflection. even though, it's totes a colour i like, and that describes my nature: dark, docile and devoid of religion & chains. but there was something about the grey that protruded negativity.

a new banner. simpler and stained with blood. representing my humanity of being full of flaws and vices. the light colour also resembling my freedom & liberty under the blood of Christ Jesus.

gibber gibber gibber. i'm hungry for the Word.
good afternoon fellow comrades.

lunch

doesn't look so appetising but it tastes amazing.

first time i've eaten rice in weeks!

lunch:

portuguese chicken soaked in chilli flakes

tomatoes & cucumber w/ thousand island dressing

white rice

yum. absolute yum.

memoirs:

desired purchases list:

not necessarily a cat, but a pet. something i can share gossip to.
(how flarpin' cute is it?)

disposable camera from Urban Outfitters. US$12

Diana F+ Camera. Not the aviator edition. but i'd like to one day buy it with the fish-eye add-on and the flash. gee, they're quite expensive. US$65

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

currently enjoying their older stuff more than their new stuff.
for the purpose that hayley's vocal skill puts me to shame and their latest album conveys a rage that i'm not progressing as a vocalist.

not that i want to be her, or that i hate her. but her chest range brings me to my knees in the sheer power of it.

dmfgjkhze
Tlgkjndkhn

and why was the finger pointed at my when the woman asked 'don't you guys want to start a band?'
'...she does'

so i'm left looking like a desperado.

shin chan, i'm your number one fan!

nothing that puts the mind at ease when you purchase amazing things. for instance, these new 'shin chan' socks.

inappropriate, yes. amazing nonetheless. i also found jeans for $10, a singlet for $3, dress for $25 and havaianas (finally after about 4 years without them :{}).

so indeed, i'm currently please. btw. had that gig today. the venue wasn't as big as i thought, the crowd wasn't as cool and i thought. i'm pretty sure everyone wants to punch the comedian who asked josel if he was circumcised. but all in all it was quite fun, being idiots and dancing to 'emotion' by destiny's child.

and then getting paid... $40. haha. no, i'm happy. that's about 4 days wage for me, the unemployed.

:D

mother:

has just boarded china airlines and is off to manila with a 3 hr stop at taiwan. it was quite nice dropping her off to the airport, our entire nuclear family was there. padre, madre, hermano and mi (translation: father, mother, brother and myself). i put in her diary as a reminder to buy me an iPod touch or an iPhone. whatever she comes home with i'll be pleased :)

so she'll be gone for three weeks, and i will reign with a harsh communist dictatorship under the alias 'Vladimir'. i've already assigned mi hermano the position of official manager of dish hygiene as i slave over the stove and concoct interesting meals for mi padre.

it's my birthday soon. glad to be turning seventeen. not glad that i have so much school work to do.
have fun madre. party on.

all for love

stumbling upon the songs back when i was first walking with Christ. this song tore me apart.
*sigh really need to read that book 'what ever happened to worship?'


but anyway, the harmonies in this knocked my socks off.

third of january

first off,

happy birthday to monica - 15 (left), kristine - 14 (right) and joanna - 14 (not pictured). these girls are such highlights on my life. the way they walk with Christ, their integrity, their humility and even how they overcome rough seas. i love them a lot and they're a punch of brats that you love being around :)

today we had a second rehearsal for chad peralta's gig on sunday. oops, totally forgot about it. i didn't even have my proper gear so for most of the time i was just watching - however i did score some back-up parts as well as piano parts. muahah! it was quite mad, i felt legit being able to rehearse in an actual studio.

chad's a pretty decent guy, twas nice haha. so i shall anticipate further rehearsals... and getting paid :)

the boys and i are of such similar taste, they're so lovely to be around. niko once again declaring 'let's start a band' - guys you don't understand how down i am with that idea. but i'm just waiting for you guys to wrap your head around it.
josel's down. michael's down. niko's down. mark's down. i'm down. so, what are we waiting for?