some lovely observations:

life in ny, only a portion..

i'm such a rockstar. kidding.

or am i?

oh em gee

i want to die.

bury the castle

some photos when a whole platoon of us spent the night at the peralta's during winter.
it was glorious :D
we made some hilarious videos which will surface with time.
but first, this is where i am. and this is who i'm with.

now for the memories:

thinking of going back to my original hair colour. what y'all think?

but i like the red.. but it's so high maintenance :P

as am i. kidding.

you're average caterpillar

BOW

bow wow? no.
i have finally planned what i will be doing for my body of work for visual arts in 2010.
it consists of a mix of photography, graphic design and perhaps painting (body painting?).

my initial concept was based on world suffering, but after look at how i wanted it. it was too complicated. so i've come a topic that deems so simple, yet so complex when you reflect on it: IDENTITY

identity, for me, sums up 2009. probably because it's what i was studying with my cell group. but also because, i've discovered a lot about myself, my purpose, calling, passion & my future. i've been learning that i'm weak, i'm poor, i'm all this and that, but in Christ. man, i'm given such worth & millions of second chances :)

so, i'm going to need 37 individuals of different body shapes, genders & ages to be my models for this, and i'm afraid to say, you're going to be topless. don't worry, there's no nippers involved. the idea is that to the world, we're stripped down to just a name, or to nothing, just roaming masses. it's loosely based on NOOMA | 018 Name, but my idea doesn't directly copy that.

i'm quite excited. it's something i'd like to keep.

my heart song.

lovelovelovelovelovelove

proudproudproud

that's my friend lachlan on the left. Not the most flattering of photos, but i couldn't believe he was serious about joining the army. He left after year 10, he was smart and now i see he's really passionate.

he has absolutely no idea that i posted this, but i'm extremely proud. i have immense respect for people who join the military. if war ever broke out and threatened australia, i'd either join and fight, or be a nurse.

what would you do?

arab - for brian

a little look into my school life.
btw. i'm not giving the rude finger, it's the wedding finger...

gotta have FAITH!!!!!!

limp bizkit do a cover of george michael's 'faith'.
i'm warning you, it's pretty RAHHHHHHHHH!


i seem to love it though.

nostalgia

remember the days when you used to text me every day? sometimes every hour... you'd even call when you were bored. you'd send through the most random of jokes and stories. then change came, unexpectedly. i rejected it - i didn't embrace it, i pretended it wasn't there, and in the midst of that we had a bit of a fallout. all in all. i grew jealous that you were happy, you saw my "suffering" but i could never confess.

long story short,
all i wanted to say is that i miss you, and i miss doing life with you.
that's what happens when i clean up my phones inbox and i read the text-messages from you that i refuse to delete.

craving this right now. it's SOY good.

keep me accountable:

i would like to:
- become physically and spiritually fit
- partake of healthy physical and spiritual food.
- be legit with my integrity
- have faith
- do it for His glory
- get rid of that excess mass/baggage 'weighing' me down. (i.e. spiritually & physically)


i'm ready to embark on this journey. please, don't let me fall out.

recap: lights & sounds

it's 1:30am. just got home after celebrating at maccas haha.
had a satisfying night. performed in a satisfying manner. just generally really happy. all the hard work, (blood), sweat and tears really paid off in the end. but it all comes down to what my father thinks. i'm sorry, but i want to make him proud.

:P
in other news, i got my colcasac today! YAY! maccabee can now travel around in style:

stay tuned for videos and photos of the night!

last bible study 2009 :)

niko's boy and my girls had a joint date dinner/feast :) it was fun. watching the boys show off, and subtly hit on the girls. haha. but honestly, it was cool. we had crazy comps and us girls eventually were kicked out. but it was great to hear that niko led worship with his bible study :')

for my bible study, we concluded this year with just remembering that God's promises prevail and to remain hopeful. we can all agree that 2009 was a pretty tough year. i'm thankful for those girls. they encourage me and catch me on things i mess up on.

latest addition :) jacqui. she's awesome.

:') i love these girls.

is it just me? or should i wear all black all the time..

bah! too bad christmas party isn't rock star themed, i would have won for shizzzzzzz.

lol. thought i might flaunt to beth and bri-bri my infamous leather pants.

indeed.

does that summarise my day?

oh andrew, it was good chilling with you again. let's spar!

just letting you know,

i still post in tumblr. occasionally.
just general stuff for my friends at school :)

HOW CARING AM I?
lol.

always

that future dude that i'll 'fall' in love with will write songs like these:

it's incredibly simple. it's incredibly deep.
i mean i wish i could write songs like that. boy, am i trying.


"hallelujah, i'm caving in" - :)

glebe street festival

it was so rich in culture i loved it :)
here are some pics.
warning: my arms look ridiculous

the kingdom

watched this today. pretty good film, it's about a group of FBI agents that investigate the bombings inside an american compound in saudi arabia. like always, it contained the right amount of action that i needed. i had to get out of my chair and walk around the room! it was quite the insane. jennifer garner drove i knife into a dudes privates and then into his skull. brutal. i liked that it dabbled on family, that is, the contrasts and similarities of an islamic and non-islamic family.

we, the western world, hold such prejudices against those extremist societies that we see on the news etc, but we fail to recognise or look past those middle eastern bogans, i mean, their misconceptions of us come from those extremists that they exploit on the news right? really, there are decent people in those nations. there are people of different faiths/religions who hold similar morals as we do, perhaps not substitute. but why hate? i wish more christians were more like Jesus and less like judges. we're to offer love, hope, acceptance and forgiveness (through salvation in Jesus Christ), instead some of us alienate, condemn and judge because we feel we have that authority. we don't. and it drives me up the wall. we're to edify not put-down-ify.

we seem to blame them for most things, but have we ever looked at ourselves and asked 'what could i have done to have caused this?' conflicts come from differences of perspectives/beliefs/decisions/etc, and seem to be resolved by our similarities. but i guess, in this world, we'll never reach that place of peace or compromise.

i could dabble on. i was tempted to go onto talking about communism. but i'll leave it here for now. forever interested in history & people
Ms. Sitbog

"i am my own affliction, i am my own disease" - switchfoot

thank you rajan for giving me the cd :) i want to rock out. brings the gats, bring the drums. let's bang our heads.

got home at 5am

went to pancakes on the rocks with rajan, yan, el and joy. the usual crew in which we just fellowship together and roam the city streets. our new is aim to add one more person to every time we go. tonight, it was pat. eating in the early hours of the morning didn't do great things for my digestive system. but i could hear pat laughing all the way from my cubicle.. down stairs. lol.


here's a vlog :) we got pulled over by a cop, it was quite a joyous experience don't you think?

great success

satisfyingly cut my fring-trizzles.

international to write love on her arms day:

today, whitney and i with our red and black sharpies tagged most of the seniors and 3 teachers with love! promoting a cause that i think is pretty rad. to write love on her arms is a foundation/charity/something in which raises awareness about teen depression and suicide. i love it. we're going to endorse it at school, it's really easy to raise funds for it. oh imagine imagine...

in art with debs and renee.

left to right: jodi, emily, ezekiel, alex, myself, kali & aden

mr. cooooooooombs. you flippin' gangster. when he can't move us from the room, he jams with us.

Haha. i love music.

thought this was refreshingly cool. from my friends tumblr.

update #00234

had band practice today! it was of quite some enjoyment. we really packed in a lot in just 2 hours. i'm really satisfied with the progress right now. i just need to work on my second song. also went out to dinner with joy, we ate at hogs breath, but under our own breaths we were kind of hoping to have eaten at mcdonalds. LOL. could've saved $20. but that's okay. got to splurge every once in a while - but on better investments. we made a new friend named gwen, she was awesome.

i get maccabee's new sleeve soon. i very excite. it's red. my favourite colour. also, God has been sweeping out the fog that's been in the midst of my bible study. the clouds are parting, ahh thank you for the grace. cannot believe next week is the last week we'll be together as a group for the year. so i hope we end it off with a bang. 2009 has been a really challenging year. (it's still november. gosh. calm down vicki)

i'm performing at mchappy day this sat! i have a 30 min. set. was told today by aden. i love his humility and his motivation to put AKA (aden kali acoustic) out there. myspace them guys if you'd like. i marvel at their popularity amongst locals. plus, it's cute when i teach him how to harmonise. haha.

bible study at the beginning of the year :) from left to right: kristine, joanna, yours truly, abbie e, abbey o, chloe and kyla at the back? mia: christine, jacqui, naomi and hannah. i miss hannah and naomi!

christmas day 2008, one of the best in a while - even though it was just hanging out. everyone's going away this year. including mumsies. anyone want to celebrate with me?

into the wild:

tear inducing quote. (when you watch the movie)

the colour isn't as vivid as they are on maccabee, which is a shame. here's my first step back into the design game. click to see the actual colours, i like.
just experimenting with overlaying and stuff.

indescribable beauty

when i should be listening:

wednesday, eleventh of november, two-thousand and nine.
first period and i've got english. good thing i have maccabee before me. i know i shouldn't be blogging offline, which is sad (i typed this in first, posted in third - i'm in visual arts: graphic designing). however, i've done the work were doing so meh.

sitting next to emily, we're the only two with laptops. she got a new usb, it's the size of a fingernail and is 4GB. golly.

i'm going to get back into designing. but there's just so much going on right now.

here's some photos of jodi and i in music. who by the way, is currently going through so much unnecessary fiasco due to this other jealous class mate. it's honestly become really pathetic - we're senior students.

call of duty: modern warfare 2

brother just bought it. it's tear inducing. all the guns, war and fury. it's so beautiful.
(i do not condone war or violence in the armed manner)

some of the things i'm experiencing. theres no health bar, so theres a whole lot more 'o' blood. i think we're versing the russians, they communist again?

SPOILER: remember sgt. soap? dude, he's a captain now! oh. i'm like a 9 year old girl at a hannah montana concert.