NEVER POSTED: Dear Condemning Christians,

from where i stand as a christian, one of the greatest failings i’ve witnessed from christians (from the past and to present day) is the misunderstanding of homosexuality and how it was and is sometimes abused and overshadowed by homophobia and ignorance. homosexuality isn’t a new thing, or a next level sin, it’s something that’s been discussed and dealt with for a really long time, it stemming to the old testament of the Bible (from as far as i’ve read).

yet still, why do homosexuals recieve such hate? why are some churches building cultures of fear where being honest would mean “almost certain rejection and ridicule”? Everyone is guilty of sin and no one has any authority to pin a person or reject a person just because they have chosen to live a certain way.

The only thing you could really say to a person (any person) is that you’re living in sin, why? because “i have sinned too”, because “i have walked in your shoes”, because “this is who i was, and this is who i am today because of Jesus”, because “i’m just as broken and messed up” not because you’re “holier-than-thou” or because you’re straight.

just let me get my message straight: GOD IS NOT A PERSECUTOR OF HOMOSEXUALS. If He were a persecutor of homosexuals, He would then be a persecutor of all our sins. we would all be condemning and picketing against each other for thinking lustful thoughts about your crush, for wearing your sister’s favourite shirt without asking, for not doing the dishes for your parents etc etc… and the world would be a really weird place. if that’s how God was, i wouldn’t want to believe in Him. but that’s not who He is, and this is not what Jesus teaches. The bible is not homophobic.

What are Christians supposed to do then? Well i’m going to live out Jesus’ gospel, not by shoving his Word down peoples’ throats and bible bashing others to see my veiw, but by bearing that same Love He shared for everyone (the homosexuals, the murderers, the adulterers, the liars - there are no exceptions for Jesus). He died and rose again for a specific reason and hate isn’t one of them. I know, i've only begun the work that God wants me to do through my friends. It's a scary thing to do, to challenge your friendships, not because of being religiously blind, but because of the genuine love you have for them. to see them understand that unconditional love God has for them.

[POST-SCRIPT]: Read Leviticus 18, Read 1 Corinthians 6:9-11.
A lot of what i learnt on this topic came from a book titled “what some of you were” which was edited by Christopher Keane. it’s pretty much different stories of people who are christian and have struggled or are struggling with homosexuality and transsexuality (or are family members of those who are). it's a great book.

NEVER POSTED: and we've got time on our hands

february 15th, 2010 • 8:59pm
yeah so: it all boils down to this. are you going to sink or swim? are you going to let go or hold on? it all comes down to your decision at the end of the day.
does this feeling of betrayal justify the escalation of events? does your presumed thoughts of one another seem relevant to be waved around, paraded as their weaknesses.
i for one, am glad to not be consumed, to be masked in a facade that dictates me to act otherwise.

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march 17th, 2010 • 10:57pm
it's been a while since the days i would sit down and write an actual update or blog of the happenings. you, my dear followers, observe mere sparse explosions of blubber that i post.

2010, how can i define it? i think that this year is about relationships. we've certainly experienced more hardship in our friendships than ever before. they're no longer as petty and meaningless when we were young, we're all being politicians about it to be honest.

but despite all the trials and tribulations we always make it through the storm, because we are legit friends. not the kind you're just willing to drop, but we're all holding on to each other. And to be sappy about it, it's pretty inspirational. why? we have the willpower to force the preceding year 12 to sit on the other side of the courtyard, and we've also disciplined the year 11's to sit at that certain table and not the other. hand on, we're not just friends, we're a family ... heck i'll say it, we're a tribe. a group of leaders (literally, school captain, src students, sport captains etc).

we semi-fear life after school, i was talking to my friend about my experiences with hanging around with the CYK and how it's like practice for life, considering we're all so different and contrasting, and he said 'dude, that is life, that's it right there'. so i greatly appreciate how we live harmoniously together with all our own values, perceptions and meanings to life... even when we question each other, we all weren't spoon fed with what we believe, we can all give each other valid answers make us cool kids.

NEVER POSTED: vent: broke

July 12th, 2010 • 12:15am

what have we become?

we've become a needy group of children whose perceptions of what's important in our lives have been twisted and swayed by the supposed conventions of young society told to us through the television, showed to us by those magazines, reinterpreted through those hollywood love stories.

this particular rant is about young teenagers and their continual lusts for one another.

instead enjoying our youth, being kids, chillin' because its the right thing to do, we've got this understanding embedded within our brains that we have to be in a 'committed relationship', that we do in fact need a boy-toy, that strong, designer wearing guy who can 'hold me in his arms and never let go', that finding that guy to 'love' and to hold is the most essential aspect of being a teenager... when its not. do we even know what it means to be committed?

why do we think we know what we want? why do we order a hot chips, look at our bulging guts, and then wish we got the salad? do some of us even have a gut?

are teenagers more lonely these days? then make some friends. where's the comfort in forging a relationship on the precept that he's hot, hence you think he's cute, therefore he's perfect boyfriend material. why do some of us do it for the sake of social status?

why do we assume its love when you met him/her 2 minutes ago? why do girls allow themselves to be subconsciously prostituted from boy to boy, trying to find that substitute for her inadequacy to be content with what she's got and who she is as an individual. however, instead they let themselves be hurt, again and again.

why can't we stand on our own two feet as an individual? why do some of us want to have our identity attached to somebody else's.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry. but it legitimately breaks my heart to see young teenagers waste their golden years on temporary and fading things. losing sight of the extraordinary greatness that they each behold. the fact that they could change the world... if they stopped looking at the mirror.

i may be old school, dryly conservative, subconsciously judgemental, rude, obtrusive, out of context or what-have-you. but eh. i'm only like this because i care. 

season of substance:

so, this blog is no longer "me, facing giants". why? because i can always lie or cover up or blow up the giants i face in my life. it's now a continual season of substance, which was supposed to be a short period of time, but why should i limit my integrity and the development of personal revelation etc? that's something a superficial man would do. but i am no longer appealed to the surface wonderings of the human condition. we all suffer different levels extremities of pain and chaos.

in my first step forward, here is my first of my 'drafted' posts i never got to click 'publish' with from my tumblr. i'll try and date it, but my goodness, this stuff is so timely for the things i'm experiencing right now. i love how your past can scream back at you telling you to wake up and what not. i'm awesome.

july 12 2010