WELCOME TO THE AFTERMATH

BEAUTIFUL, DANGEROUS

Okay, the music video is risqué. But Slash's 'Beautiful Dangerous' is one of my vocal goals for the year. I want to branch off into more rock stuff, i've really got to explore music more. It's time i move off from singing Paramore. It's very expected of me, but i don't want to be generalised like that.
Also, i need to start song writing again, like, actually write down the lyrics and melodies i create. Jamming on my guitar tonight was fun.

streams and brooks

what a beautiful and traditional diary. hm, next time i'm in glebe i'm definitely going to go crazy and buy billions of leather bound journals.

listening to brooke fraser helps me dream of spring and summer. it helps me look affectionally of the upside of this hot season. circumstances around me, however, leave me longing for the cold. where hugs are more welcoming and intimacy is exchanged for warmth.

Steve McCurry

Steve McCurry is my favourite photojournalist of late. His blog in itself is inspiring and reiterates just how lucky the developed world has it compared to the struggles of those who are living in poor conditions, whose lives are threatened due to civil conflict and aren't able to access an excellent education we do.

Additionally, i was watching comedian Louis C.K. the other night, and he had a joke on how "white people have white people problems". Being that we, citizens of the developed world usually make up our own problems despite of our amazing lives. I've graduated high school, but i don't have a boyfriend. I go to McDonald's for food, but I've had to wait 5 minutes in queue. Tumblr is down, i have nothing else to do with my life.

I've really learnt to put everything into perspective. Live with humility. Love with compassion. Life is only as hard as you make it.

Oh, and read Steve McCurry's Blog

fist pump. every opportunity you can.

Headache,

I have an intense headache. For real. And i'm so tired (in an i've-seized-the-day kind of way), we have this DVBS (Daily Vocational Bible School) going on at my church. It's basically a 5 day "camp" for kids empowering them to be heroes in their own circumstances and communities (as well as learning about this epic hero we've got named God). My expectations were thrown out the window as soon as i saw their smiling faces and affectionate hugs come before me. i've never been so blessed by kids, and i've never been so excited to serve them like this before.

On a more personal aspect of my life, I've had to do some growing up. Some difficult growing up. In one part of my life, i'm bearing so much fruit, i'm getting to the root of issues i've been having and things are being rebuilt and i've been edified. In another, I feel like i'm being neglected. Like I've been tossed out without care. Like I'm no longer worth so much as a superficial conversation, let alone the great revelations we used to share. Friendships are harder to maintain when you're not coerced to spend every minute of the day with such people. Actually, it's been incredibly easy for some but for others, i'm slowly letting them go for the fear that i've already been let go of. And that sucks, being parted from like that without a word, without a reason, without even a chance to fight it out.

Hm. This headache's throbbing harder.

UNIVERSITY

I start uni in 9 days. And i have yet to send in my enrolment form and digital passport photo. That's just how incredibly awesome I am *nervous laugh*

There's no better way than procrastinating then re-discovering your favourite blogs / photographers online. Seriously, i've wasted hours just looking through and reminding myself why i love them in the first place. And reminding me to live myself. Sure, their photographs are brilliant but i can't help but think that there is a world outside my macbook, a world that i could fall in love with without having to rely on the photographs of someone i don't know (this is good and bad thing). And all i have to do is turn this mac off, put on some shoes and walk outside my own door and check it out. hmm, cannot wait to start uni and begin discovering sydney city for what it's worth.

ah, no. i shan't be revealing my secret blogs.

NYE: 2010

#10 [COPACABANA]

i make these Adventure videos. i've made 10 so far, click here to check them all out. They're an exchange of words for footage as i record some of the things we all go through (birthday parties, road trips, stormy drives home, kittens) and put them into one short video. I quite enjoy documenting my life like this. It makes it easier to relive.

So NYE last year was seriously the greatest NYE i've ever experienced, it also happened to be my good friend Yan's birthday. It's nice to know the world celebrates it too, haha. I can't really describe any more, i guess you'll have to watch in order to find out.