s.o.a.p

i can't help but be refreshed by the destiny shapers that are leading yd. as a person so young in leadership, i still struggle with setting myself apart for God's glory. There's a worldly attitude to me, which i detest, but by the grace of God i'm blessed to have people kick my bum in.


it's 12:22am on a wednesday morning; and i want to finish my lesson plan tonight. only to find in my personal reflection that i've been so rash and i've found that i've been all about quantity, not quality. i've been the third person to my cell group, worst part is, i'm the one leading it. a meteor had struck when i realised i'm legitimately dealing with lives of the fragile youth. i've been somewhat proud to admit my fragility. i hadn't been sharing of experience, and through that, i was demeaning the Word.


i'm going to have to say just for her recognition, my internship under joyce was the most rewarding thing i've ever experienced. she's all about edification, justification, affection and quality. in all her humility, she's downright an amazing figure who i admire. when i started 2010, i missed it. i missed having her as my safety net. but i remember, she agreed that i was ready to be thrown into the deep end. and i've surfaced.


"To be brutally blunt with you all it's not about just turning up it's about the condition of our hearts...are we really depending on God, are we really passionate about God doing the miraculous? do we really want to see things change? ...well we have to sacrifice, sacrifice, sacrifice. Let's do it guys let's truly have a deep conviction that God can do it but He is waiting for us to partner with Him.

Let's never settle for second best" - PG

if we were living in OT times, i'd be tearing my hair out and gnashing my teeth.

woe to the complacent and God be praised.