captive of captivity

ephesians 4:8

"Therefore He says:

"When He ascended on high, 

He led captivity captive, 

And gave gifts to me"."

2010 has so far been a year of complete restoration and transformation from the hardship and brokeness that what 2009. i was overworked, over-stressed, over-conscious, over, over, over it. emailing the YD leadership team i had to stop myself from writing them a 5000 word treatise on my life and switch over to the place i should be posting with some element of substance. oh that's right, right here.

one thing i've learnt in these early months of the year is the greatness that is when you surrender yourself to God. and it's not about being all talk and just saying it, but it's giving God the hammer + chisel and allowing Him to refine you and, like a sculptor, turn you into that image that He conceived of you, for you, a magnificent masterpiece (Eph. 2:10).

i've also been learning the futility in fighting with God. A sense that you want Him to do this, while you go off and do that. Or that you'll want Him to turn a blind eye while you dabble in a good sin here. no fingers are being pointed, who doesn't sin? God. HA. true that. But as the verse above states 'He led captivity captive', that right there is victory over all our circumstances, in all the times we feel conjured up, isolated, restricted and imprisoned. i'm learning to just lay it all down and let God lead me into the purposes He's planned, not like a narrow-minded religious nut, but like a farmer: he goes through droughts + natural disasters, but that's just the beginning until the harvest.

And boy, am i excited.