SO WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?
That's a mighty common question that frequents these parts of the blogging-stratosphere. Yes, yes. I believe so. I think it's only right, for the sake of humanity, that i type down all the new and wonderous things that have been going in my life thus far. However, the real question is where, or how do i even begin to describe all the details of my nineteen year old life?
I'll start first and foremost with quite possibly the most shocking new thing to occur to me to date. I am in a relationship... with a boy! The "Ana" from a few years ago probably would have convulsed at the thought that I am in possession of a man (named Ben Zamor) who has the ability and privilege to turn me into a sappy girl. A girl of which melts at the sight of button-up shirts and skinny ties and jeans when combined with sexy on-stage bass grooves and his winning smile. Thank God this is no longer a public blog, lest he discover how i truly feel about him. No, he knows that i really, truly and deeply like him and am eager to progress in this relationship. It's crazy to think that I am in one. I am still the immature little girl who cringes at PDA (public displays of affection) and is still completely ignorant of the land of relationships and what it entails. Who knew that my immaturity would score me a boyfriend. See! It pays to be a goof 99% of the time!
Another detail of my life is that I am reigniting my passion for loving God, loving people and serving God again. I don't intend to jump straight back into ministry, but it's like I am at the beginning of my walk again. Falling sincerely in love with God, and knowing full well the grace I am living under. It is amazing. It is refreshing. And it has come at a time when i really do need Him. Last year I was a rebellious prodigal daughter and I had become so bipolar with my identity that the healthiest option for myself and others was to step aside. I let a lot of people down. Looking back on it, it's unfortunate that I stepped down, however it has allowed me to grow in God solely and allow Him to fill me again. Not ministry, not the people i served or served with, just God. I am beginning to remember the satisfaction spending each day with Him was like and the desire to read His word and be inspired. Ah, I'm very excited.
My career is also taking off. Look i'm really tired and ....
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